Friday, June 12, 2009

The Voice

Why do I have to be the single girl with morals?! Damn those morals!!! Life would be so much easier without a conscience. Without constantly having to hear the small voice saying "I wouldn't do that, Rae." "Not a good decision." "No!!" or my favorite "Those consequences are gonna suck if you go down this road." Why can't I not care?? Why can't I just do whatever the fuk I want to? Why do I get to be the only one with fuckin standards that are apparently way too high. My friend Mike said the other day that he was gonna lower his standards and up the quantity of women in his life. Why can't I do that, without having the voice pester me?!?! UGH!! Even know as I'm writing this I feel bad cuz I know I shouldn't feel this way...but I do. So again...there is guilt. I'm constantly drowning in it. Life fuckin sucks sometimes.