Going Under

Fuk, can today get any worse?!?!?!?! Fuck me running, I'm so confused. I feel like I'm being pulled into 5 million directions when all I want to do is stop and not listen or hear anything or anybody. I can't even hear myself think amidst all the shit raging around me. I feel like I'm being dragged under a wave and as I come up for air, there is another one ready to crash me. I feel myself being enticed by the numbing agents that always worked before. I want to drive and drive and drive. No, my life doesn't suck. People do. People who can't say what they want. I'm slowly going under and this time, I don't fuckin care....I'm letting myself go.